In the darkness of our bedroom, I laid hands on oldest daughter and prayed silently with eyes closed, sobbing, scared. Daughter in our bed because I was afraid to take hands and eyes off of her for even a second. My heart had been shattered into a thousand, maybe more, pieces. My niece had just passed away due to circumstances that we couldn’t understand. Confusion swirled around my head. I was scared that my daughter could be next, unsure of what was happening. Anxious, uneasy, afraid, grieving…just completely and utterly broken. Daughter had had a seizure just the day before our niece passed so we were in a state of desperation, grasping at comprehension.
Husband comes into the room without me realizing since my eyes were closed, and I hear him praying over oldest daughter as well. That was the first time in our marriage I had ever heard him pray out loud. The very first time. I was holding my breath. Amongst the grief and pain and brokenness, peace covered us. I opened my eyes and looked around the room, almost visibly seeing the presence of God surrounding us. I could almost tangibly touch it. The pain existed still, but peace covered our hearts in an understanding of His covering on us.
I wonder how Mary felt when the birth of Jesus was nearing. Was she anxious? Did she worry where she was going to deliver her baby since they couldn’t find a place to stay? She was a mama just like me. I know she doted over that sweet babe and fretted just as any mama does. Now, don’t think I’m naïve to think her situation is much the same as mine, or anyone else’s for that matter. But I do know that she was human, so I’m sure anxiety and nervousness surrounded her heart. I imagine that she too prayed over her babe and their situation, and she too was given the peace that we’re offered.
Do you have a time in your life when you remember feeling His peace for the first time? Do you have a time in your life when you’ve felt His peace transcend all understanding? What are you going through right now that has you needing God’s peace?
Not just in a moment of this magnitude, but peace is given every day by the One. Isn’t it true that we think at times it takes monumental occasions in order to access the things, like peace, that God offers us? We believe we need to save up this power so we have it when we really need it. Truth is, it never runs out. God wants to give us peace in the monumental occasions but also in the ones that seem mediocre or small. He just wants to be with us, meeting our needs in every way.
Now may the Lord of peace himself give you peace at all times in every way.
The Lord be with you all.
2 Thessalonians 3:16 ESV