Have you ever heard or felt like God was telling you to just be still? This past week, while another staff member was praying over me, something he said seemed to sit with me the rest of the day. I prayed about it and felt like God was making those words repeat over and over in my head. God used Pastor Phil to speak something over my life that I needed to hear. God was telling me that I have to just sit in this season for a bit. Can I be honest? I don’t want to! I just want to get through the grieving process as quickly as possible. I don’t want to sit here anymore, I want to “get over it.” I’m tired of crying, I’m tired of sleepless nights due to anxiety, I’m tired…I’m just tired. This season has been tough. Since October, I have experienced a lot of heartbreak and pain. Life has felt at moments like it has been spinning out of control and chaotic. And God is telling me to sit here? Confusing, right? Why in the world would I want to sit in the chaos?
But, just like He always does, God is leading me in the middle of it. The truth is, grief is not something you “get through.” It’s a process. God simply said to me yesterday that it is okay to be exactly where you are. I’m a thinker, and I want to figure everything out and try to see what comes next for me. Yet in this moment, God is telling me to just be, to sit still in His presence, to cry those tears, and to allow Him to walk me through to healing.
Be still, and know that I am God!
Psalm 46:10 NLT
Since I feel as though God is calling me to sit and be still, I wanted to have more context on exactly what this looks like, so I turned to the Bible. I can use a lot of help in this area because sitting and being still are not easy for me. I have read the above verse so many times, but as I dug deeper I learned so much more. When translated from its origin, “be still” means to cause yourself to become weak or cause yourself to let go. So what I feel God is calling me to do in this moment is to be okay with my weakness, to be okay with the grieving process, to be okay with the fact that I am human and I don’t have it all together. Tears are a good thing. Sorrow and sadness are a part of life. While I sit in His presence, I need to surrender all to Him. I need to stay here for a little while so that God can show me His strength, His goodness, His faithfulness, and His kindness. I need to sit here in this moment so that I can experience the healing and restoration I need. In this moment, I feel as though God is reminding me that when I sit in His presence, when I surrender all I am going through to Him (sometimes multiple times a day), that is where I can find freedom and the much needed rest for my soul. I do not have to deal with this on my own. I am weak and desperately need a Savior, not just in this moment but at all times. This process is tough and one I would like to avoid altogether, but I know it is a necessary part of life, and I anticipate some great growth in this season of sitting, listening, and allowing God to show up in a BIG way. My dear friends, I want to encourage you today not to give up on your situation. Don’t run from it or just try to “get through it.” Look at it as an opportunity to sit and be in the presence of God. Sometimes the best thing we can do for ourselves in these moments and seasons is to just sit in God’s presence and allow Him to do what only He can. Praying that as you sit at the feet of Jesus, He reveals His goodness, His sovereignty, His grace, and anything else you may need that only He can provide today.
This High Priest of ours understands our weaknesses, for he faced all of the same testings we do, yet he did not sin. So let us come boldly to the throne of our gracious God. There we will receive his mercy, and we will find grace to help us when we need it most.
Hebrews 4:15-16 NLT